so sad.......

My parents told me, "Never take candy from strangers, unless they offer you a ride in their car." -Woody Allen

Well I'm just in such a sad mood. Mike has to go to Amsterdam on Monday to do a world wide computer show. He begged me to go I was a little nervous to leave the kids for 10 days, and travel for 15 hours on planes, and being a "fat American" traveling abroad. But he talked me into it anyway. We got my passport we had to go to an outside company and expidite it to have it in time. I have been buying little things over the past few months, a more pick pocket proof purse, travel accessories, etc... I have researched where to go what to see, where to shop, what to eat I have been so excited!

Then I hurt myself in my sleep? I guess. But I am still in pain, I am going to a chiropractor, I went to a bone doctor, who sent me away because he said my problem was in my neck and not my shoulder, and he doesn't do necks, he also said no pain pills would touch the burning pain I'm haveing because it is nerves. I'm going to get an MRI today, but I'm pretty sure that I am not going to be able to take that trip. My shoulder blade hurts so bad when I just lie on it, I tried to sleep in the recliner last night but the pressure in my shoulder blade just builds and builds until the pain is so bad it wakes me right up. So I was up at 3:30 AM this morning bawling my eyes out because I just don't see how I can sit in the hard airplane seats for 15 hours and not be in agony. The really sad part is that Mike had a first class ticket all the way, but changed it to coach so he could be with me. And now I don't see how I can go.:-(